I think this week is all about positive affirmations. Our parents came and visited us from Utah for Jordan's white coat ceremony and we had a blast, but since they've been gone (only for about a day) already I can feel this dark cloud coming over me. I am sad they are gone. I am sad I am not with them. I am sad that I am no longer in a familiar place, with hardly any familiar names, and no close friends. Getting to know people and places is so much work! I don't regret moving though. I'll never regret supporting my husband and cheering him on as he takes his first medical school test (was that today?...Wonder how it went...) and ultimately aspires to become a doctor.
I am reminded of the little train who said "I think I can...I think I can." That train didn't just "think", but put action to that thought and eventually finished the race. I "think" I can overcome these things, but I KNOW that faith without action is dead works. I know that if I put myself to work, I can overcome any obstacle in life. I could have all the faith in the world, but without proving my faith, it would be for nothing. As with any trial in our life, we have to just keep putting one step in front of the other. We can't just sit there waiting for divine intervention. God gives us the other side of the hill as a reward for climbing up that hill. So, even though I am feeling down right now, I will continue to try to make new friends and I will annoy Olivia to death with all my hugs and kisses because she's my little buddy right now and sometimes the only social contact I have.
She has been learning so much this past week. Her Aunt Hannah gave her a baby doll and Olivia loves to try and feed it with the bottle (she gets annoyed that nothing comes out) and loves to give it kisses and hugs. Before the grandparents left, she took her first real steps with them all! It's funny that I thought of that Little Train, because speaking of which, Olivia has a train that she just loves to push around and play with. It's probably her favorite toy! I know it has helped her develop her walking skills and it amazes me how much she learns and grows each week. It seems like we are all growing up a little bit more and changing. Jordan is going to be a doctor, I'm learning how to be a better mom and nurse, and Olivia is learning how to be a toddler. I started working out last night and it took all of my guilt-tripping persuasive mind powers to get me on that treadmill. I don't know why I fought it so much because it wasn't bad at all. I'm doing this 21 day workout program that I found online that will help me kickstart getting into shape. After 21 days I hope that I will be able to stay in the habit of working out and continue my journey on becoming a healthy person. This first week I have to keep telling myself to just go do it. Drop everything and get your workout in.
This whole week will be full of positive affirmations, but I know I can do it. I know I can make Texas my new home in time. TTT, Things Take Time. I can't believe that there will come a day when I will be sad to be leaving this chapter of my life, but I know it will happen. If I can just immerse myself in my new life, I think I'll have a really wonderful time here. If you think of us, give us a call or text or a little love note on Facebook. I know we would love to hear from you. These last couple of days have been hard, but I will get over it. There is another side to my hill and I'm nearly there...
